I Don't Wanna Be Alone

I've spent the past two days on the computer applying for jobs. What ever happened to the old fashioned walk-in-and-pick-up-an-application method? Go figure, but I don't think that I'm alone in this process. It seems to be a post college trend. What I don't get are the people who have bypassed the process altogether. I was looking at some facebook pictures of some friends who have gotten married recently, or who have just had babies, or who have stellar jobs already.
Not so with me.
Maybe that's because I'm stubbornly refusing to go straight to grad school, but I don't think so. No, I think that all of what's happening now is natural and normal and I have to keep telling myself that. I wish that there was something in my resume that made me invaluable, that made employers fall over each other to offer me a job, but don't we all? Isn't it the goal of going to college and getting a degree that it makes you more highly qualified for great positions?
But if I had some sort of magical resume, then I would have no reason to trust when God says in the psalms that a war horse is no guarantee for victory in battle. In other words, when things seem uncertain or just plain out there, that's where God fits in. God has led me to Chicago, I still believe that, and He will show me the point soon. He will show me.

I'm trying to be alright with this process, but honestly I'm tired of waiting and it's all very disheartening. More than anything else, I'll be glad for when I move in permanently and my roommates arrive. The song by Good Charlotte was on the radio earlier and it perfectly described everything I was feeling at the moment. "I don't wanna be alone, I don't wanna be alone." Where did the community go? Where did my friends go? Is this the way it always works, to go to college for some undetermined amount of time, meet some people, and then say goodbye and move on to other people, or worse, lonliness? I hope not.